February 26th

Wow, so again, i havent posted in awhile. Okay, so ive decided that i should hope on posting once a week. Our student government started our Senior Song Practices and i couldnt hate them more. So, for one thing, our song sucks. Its reggae. or course. and it uses the worst possible english ever! its so annoying. "Going college working hard for have one better life" its like my 7 year old sister wrote the damn song. Why? They could have chosen a song with more meaning, but no, that would be too much to ask of our student government.

My step mom is doing okay so far, my dad just says that she tries to go to work everyday, but is sent home. Everyday. Then on top of all of this, my dad has to fill out paperwork for financial aid to Notre Dame. Its just a lot of drama, and im seriously sick of it.

I am still in the process of searching for a job. with no success.

Whole Foods opened, and its like walking into the mainland when you walk in there. all of the cashiers are white, and everything is like so Paia its crazy. its lkike a twilight zone. insane.


well, unfortunately my parents are calling me so i must leave.


Until tomorrow

February 19th

Today was a very emotional day. So theres this kid like in every single one of my classes. Last name: starts with an F. My readers, im sure you can figure it out. Well, ookay he is beyond annoying and considerably rude, whether he notices it or not. So, I found out today that he told his BFF that our english teacher gave us extra credit. Well, now shes probably not even going to give it to us. This hugely pisses me off. A lot. Howver, its not just this one incident that drove me to hate him. He also blew off my best friend Heidi for a girl that was totally "out of his league", if hes even in one. Then, i started hating him, because, I think its like a "girl rule" that when someone is rude/disrespectful/stupid/annoying/mean to a friend, you return the favor. So, i have been for like my entire senior year. This week, he finally got the message and flipped me off in class. Then he gave me the death stare for all of AP European History. Is it getting to me? Maybe. Am I sad? Hell to the no.


So, tomorrow my group is going to film our video...again. because, apparently the first video wasnt good enough for the "king". So, i have to waste my day doing crap for a class i couldnt hate more, instead of going to whale day!!!

Whatever. My friends will be there, so it should be fun.


Till Tomorrow

February 17th

Wow, I havent posted in awhile. I apologize, my invisible readers. So what has gone on the past two weeks? Well, I am finally, finally done with the Senior Project. Finally. It is out of my life, forever. And, forever is a long time.

A cancer update: My step-mom is in her 3rd stage of breast cancer, and will be having her first treatment on Friday of this week. The 19th. I cant even begin to believe that this disease has hit so close to home. It is completely unfathomable and ridiculously malicious. She is already going through so much pain, and cant go to work, although she tries everyday to work, they always send her home. Her strength is indominable, as is her spirit. I cant stand to see her like this, let alone my dad. This whole thing is so depressing and un-promising. I hate it with every drop of hate i have.

The NRA event is a little less than a month away, and i am so excited!

Well, Thats all for now I suppose.


Until whenever

February 5th

So lately ive been moping around, putting on a happy face so noone can see my tears. I dont mean to sound so morbid, its just that well, this situation is as depressing as it gets i guess.


On a higher note, its my sisters 7th birthday tomorrow! And, were going up to Piiholo Stables to ride horses and EAT! I love eating, but i really gotta cut down..HA HA yeah right.

I read all of chapter 23 of AP European History today, and took notes! I am desperately trying to raise my grade in that class. Which, i have a D in :(


Its so hard to talk to my dad now, its like everyone knows the same conversation starter: How's Dayna doing? Any more news with the doctor? We dont talk about us anymore or laugh. at all. it sucks. a lot.


Anyway, tomorrow should be fun.


Until then

February 1st

Friday night I found out that this year wont be much different from last year. Last year, I lost my beloved grandmother, my angel. On friday night, my dad called with the horrible news that he and his fiancee of nearly a decade, have gotten married. I was petrified at the news. It made me so incredibly angry that they would get married without me there. That was until, he told me the reason of their sudden elopement.






My dad's fiancee has breast cancer.






I cried and cried and cried and cried and cried.



Its so hard to believe. i completely forgot that they got married, and focused more on my dads tears. They only other time ive ever heard my dad cry is when he called to tell me about my grandmother's death.

She has it in both breasts, and there is a huge amount in each.


Now im facing the possible question of whether he will come to my graduation in May, or help pay for college. I know it may seem selfish, but its just a thought. an important thought at that.



So, lately my thoughts have been entirely in california, which is not helping me in school at all.


Until tomorrow